erg

i feel so lost in this place.

oh for the love of summer

whaooti!

i got into my drawing class!!
heck yes!



i'm stoked.


now if only my computer would get some stinking internet.
i want to post pictures.


erin gave me a polaroid.
because of it, picture taking has been too much fun.
now if only my life wasn't completely filled with work and work and more work.
no weekends, or any late nights for me.
gotta get out.



i'm missing my girls (and adam..haha)... but i'm so glad to be home.


started wednesday night soccer games. i hate soccer, but we have so much fun!
started reading isaiah with everyone. frig. such a cool book. makes you really think about how amazing and huge God really is. incomparable to anything else. so nuts.
going to start my third book this summer. i can't believe how quickly i'm getting through them.
going to start painting..joel and heathers wedding will come up sooner than i'll have time for. i can feel it already. so stoked to see what it's going to look like.
i think that i might make another blog.
sketchbook stuff. have all the pages already loaded into my computer.. but just need resizing and internet.


oh geez. i'm hating this post already... it's looking like one of those retarded teenybopper blogs... but it's just to help me organize my mind.


but still.. so stoked for drawing class.

ahhh summer

le petit prince c'est mon préférée

"if someone loves a flower, of which just one single blossom grows in all millions and millions of stars, it is enought to make him happy just to look at the stars. he can say to himself: 'somewhere, my flower is there...' but is the sheep eats the flower, in one moment all his stars will be darkened..."

"it is such a secret place, the land of tears."

"flowers are so inconsistant! but i was too young to know how to love her..."

"'where are all the men?' the little prince at last took up conversations again. 'it is a little lonely in the desert...'
'it is also lonely among men,' the snake said"

"and now here is my secret, a very simple secret: is it only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."

"'no one is ever satisfied where he is', said the switchman."

"'only the children know what they are looking for,' said the litle prince."

"...the stars, the desert - what gives them their beauty is something that is invisible!"

"but the eyes are blind. one must look with the heart..."

"one runs the risk of weeping a little, if one lets himself be tamed..."

"the thing that is most important is the thing that is not seen..."

"'all the men have the stars,' he answered, 'but that are not the same things for different people. for some, who are travellers, the stars are guides. for others they are no more that little lights in the sky. for others, who are scholars, they are problems. for my businessman they were wealth, but all these stars are silent. you - you alone - will have the stars as no one else has them.'
'what are you trying to say?'
'in one of the stars i shall be living. in one of them i shall be laughing. and so it will be as if all the stars were laughing, when you look at the sky at night.. you - only you - will have stars that can laugh!'
and he laughed again"

"for a long time you had found your entertainment in the quiet pleasure of looking at the sunset...
'i am very fond of sunsets. come, let us go look at a sunset now.'"

"but on your tiny planet, my little prince, all you need to do is move your chair a few steps. you can see the day end and the twilight falling whenever you like...
'one day,' you said to me, 'i saw the sunset forty-four times!'


grownups never understand anything for themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them.
-antoine de saint exupéry

rules

number one:
celebrate pooBROWN's special days.
this includes birthdays, ice cream days, first dates and storms.

this is for my alex.

1928-1987

they always say that time changes things,


but you actually have to change them yourself.

-andy warhol

mindless hazards

stop your mindless consuming.. ahh a typical syd thing to say, and many would just let it go in one ear and out the other.
but he's right. we are mindless consumers, with neverending money to spend, and we spend and spend and spend.
but one thing that i want to know is if we are also mindless lovers.
what is a mindless lover anyway? is that like a one night stand? an "i'm going out with you because you like me, not because i like you too"? is it, we're going out becuase all our friends are, and we're the last two left? is it, we're together still and really don't know how? or is it we are so devoted and helplessly in love with each other we're crazy?
crazy.
i hope that we're not mindless lovers. we throw the word love around like mad, i know this. i told myself that i wanted to be more careful, yet i still find myself saying that word so much, and for trivial things too, which i probably don't love.
what has language become?

you scallywags, you crazy ones

Brothers!
Think of what you were when you were called!!
Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth.
BUT GOD CHOSE THE FOOLISH THINGS OF THE WORLD TO SHAME THE WISE; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.
He chose the lowly things of this world, and the despised - and the things that are not - to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before Him.
It is because of Him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God - that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
Therefore, as it is written: Let him who boasts, BOAST IN THE LORD!

1corinthians.1:26-31

not a choice

cheese ball and spinach head

sheer foolishness, this is not

to put our hope in anyhting other that Jesus Christ is sheer foolishness.
trust in Him. all else is a waste of time.
people bless you with their mouths but inwardly they curse you. don't be so surprised when people let you down.
never think of a human being as a refuge and comfort.
don't put your trust and hope in people.
my soul finds rest in God alone. He only, is my salvation, refuge, hope and rock.
though your riches increase, do not set your hearts upon the.
don't trust in money. don't trust in treasure on earth because your treasure is where your heart is.
my soul waits for silence in God alone.
there is only one authority in the universw to which all others will bow: Jesus Christ.
He is the only sure thing and what He says is the only sure thing.
the richest people in the universe are those that know Jesus Christ. they hold the key to life and happiness.
God is our stronghold. our rock. our fortress. our power that cannot be shaken.
there is nothing that can topple the power of God.
build your life on the rock, not on sand, and it will stand the test of time. put everything on a solid foundation.
SELAH - listen; reflect; breathe; take time; pause, and think about it.
be careful, you may be building a wall that is just going to fall down tomorrow and isn't going to do anything for you today.
psalm 62
if Jesus isn't first on your list, then you are missing out on the best relationship of time and you are wasting time.
You are the One that is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
My soul rests in God alone. My soul rests in God alone. My sould rests in God alone.
He is the faithful One.
God waits for us in the silence.



Psalm 62
Song of Trust in God Alone
A Psalm of David.

1 For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall never be shaken.

3 How long will you assail a person,
will you batter your victim, all of you,
as you would a leaning wall, a tottering fence?
4 Their only plan is to bring down a person of prominence.
They take pleasure in falsehood;
they bless with their mouths,
but inwardly they curse. Selah

5 For God alone my soul waits in silence,
for my hope is from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
7 On God rests my deliverance and my honor;
my mighty rock, my refuge is in God.

8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us. Selah

9 Those of low estate are but a breath,
those of high estate are a delusion;
in the balances they go up;
they are together lighter than a breath.
10 Put no confidence in extortion,
and set no vain hopes on robbery;
if riches increase, do not set your heart on them.

11 Once God has spoken;
twice have I heard this:
that power belongs to God,
12 and steadfast love belongs to you, O Lord.
For you repay to all
according to their work.

first star i see tonight

i wish for a polariod camera for summer adventures.

why are you wearing that stupid man suit?

"despite the glaring, absolutely indisputable, alsmot hope-extinguishing evidence demonstrating how the entire living biosystem is being traded away in green-frenzied speculative markets by soulless haords of sociopathically arrogant hyper-capitalists - i seem, nevertheless, to be filled with a profound and enduring sense of optimism which i attribute to the fast that this earthly dimension is still home to courageous, persevering, virtuous, compassionate, ever-so-lovely, visionary, conscious and dissident spirits such as you!"

i believe that the boy that sent this to me will always hold a special place in my heart, no matter what has happened.