Friday, April 21, 2006
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
le petit prince c'est mon préférée
"if someone loves a flower, of which just one single blossom grows in all millions and millions of stars, it is enought to make him happy just to look at the stars. he can say to himself: 'somewhere, my flower is there...' but is the sheep eats the flower, in one moment all his stars will be darkened..."
"it is such a secret place, the land of tears."
"flowers are so inconsistant! but i was too young to know how to love her..."
"'where are all the men?' the little prince at last took up conversations again. 'it is a little lonely in the desert...'
'it is also lonely among men,' the snake said"
"and now here is my secret, a very simple secret: is it only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."
"'no one is ever satisfied where he is', said the switchman."
"'only the children know what they are looking for,' said the litle prince."
"...the stars, the desert - what gives them their beauty is something that is invisible!"
"but the eyes are blind. one must look with the heart..."
"one runs the risk of weeping a little, if one lets himself be tamed..."
"the thing that is most important is the thing that is not seen..."
"'all the men have the stars,' he answered, 'but that are not the same things for different people. for some, who are travellers, the stars are guides. for others they are no more that little lights in the sky. for others, who are scholars, they are problems. for my businessman they were wealth, but all these stars are silent. you - you alone - will have the stars as no one else has them.'
'what are you trying to say?'
'in one of the stars i shall be living. in one of them i shall be laughing. and so it will be as if all the stars were laughing, when you look at the sky at night.. you - only you - will have stars that can laugh!'
and he laughed again"
"for a long time you had found your entertainment in the quiet pleasure of looking at the sunset...
'i am very fond of sunsets. come, let us go look at a sunset now.'"
"but on your tiny planet, my little prince, all you need to do is move your chair a few steps. you can see the day end and the twilight falling whenever you like...
'one day,' you said to me, 'i saw the sunset forty-four times!'
grownups never understand anything for themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them.
-antoine de saint exupéry
"it is such a secret place, the land of tears."
"flowers are so inconsistant! but i was too young to know how to love her..."
"'where are all the men?' the little prince at last took up conversations again. 'it is a little lonely in the desert...'
'it is also lonely among men,' the snake said"
"and now here is my secret, a very simple secret: is it only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."
"'no one is ever satisfied where he is', said the switchman."
"'only the children know what they are looking for,' said the litle prince."
"...the stars, the desert - what gives them their beauty is something that is invisible!"
"but the eyes are blind. one must look with the heart..."
"one runs the risk of weeping a little, if one lets himself be tamed..."
"the thing that is most important is the thing that is not seen..."
"'all the men have the stars,' he answered, 'but that are not the same things for different people. for some, who are travellers, the stars are guides. for others they are no more that little lights in the sky. for others, who are scholars, they are problems. for my businessman they were wealth, but all these stars are silent. you - you alone - will have the stars as no one else has them.'
'what are you trying to say?'
'in one of the stars i shall be living. in one of them i shall be laughing. and so it will be as if all the stars were laughing, when you look at the sky at night.. you - only you - will have stars that can laugh!'
and he laughed again"
"for a long time you had found your entertainment in the quiet pleasure of looking at the sunset...
'i am very fond of sunsets. come, let us go look at a sunset now.'"
"but on your tiny planet, my little prince, all you need to do is move your chair a few steps. you can see the day end and the twilight falling whenever you like...
'one day,' you said to me, 'i saw the sunset forty-four times!'
grownups never understand anything for themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them.
-antoine de saint exupéry
rules
number one:
celebrate pooBROWN's special days.
this includes birthdays, ice cream days, first dates and storms.
this is for my alex.
celebrate pooBROWN's special days.
this includes birthdays, ice cream days, first dates and storms.
this is for my alex.
1928-1987
they always say that time changes things,
but you actually have to change them yourself.
-andy warhol
but you actually have to change them yourself.
-andy warhol
mindless hazards
stop your mindless consuming.. ahh a typical syd thing to say, and many would just let it go in one ear and out the other.
but he's right. we are mindless consumers, with neverending money to spend, and we spend and spend and spend.
but one thing that i want to know is if we are also mindless lovers.
what is a mindless lover anyway? is that like a one night stand? an "i'm going out with you because you like me, not because i like you too"? is it, we're going out becuase all our friends are, and we're the last two left? is it, we're together still and really don't know how? or is it we are so devoted and helplessly in love with each other we're crazy?
crazy.
i hope that we're not mindless lovers. we throw the word love around like mad, i know this. i told myself that i wanted to be more careful, yet i still find myself saying that word so much, and for trivial things too, which i probably don't love.
what has language become?
but he's right. we are mindless consumers, with neverending money to spend, and we spend and spend and spend.
but one thing that i want to know is if we are also mindless lovers.
what is a mindless lover anyway? is that like a one night stand? an "i'm going out with you because you like me, not because i like you too"? is it, we're going out becuase all our friends are, and we're the last two left? is it, we're together still and really don't know how? or is it we are so devoted and helplessly in love with each other we're crazy?
crazy.
i hope that we're not mindless lovers. we throw the word love around like mad, i know this. i told myself that i wanted to be more careful, yet i still find myself saying that word so much, and for trivial things too, which i probably don't love.
what has language become?
Monday, April 17, 2006
you scallywags, you crazy ones
Brothers!
Think of what you were when you were called!!
Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth.
BUT GOD CHOSE THE FOOLISH THINGS OF THE WORLD TO SHAME THE WISE; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.
He chose the lowly things of this world, and the despised - and the things that are not - to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before Him.
It is because of Him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God - that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
Therefore, as it is written: Let him who boasts, BOAST IN THE LORD!
1corinthians.1:26-31
Think of what you were when you were called!!
Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth.
BUT GOD CHOSE THE FOOLISH THINGS OF THE WORLD TO SHAME THE WISE; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.
He chose the lowly things of this world, and the despised - and the things that are not - to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before Him.
It is because of Him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God - that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.
Therefore, as it is written: Let him who boasts, BOAST IN THE LORD!
1corinthians.1:26-31
Sunday, April 16, 2006
sheer foolishness, this is not
to put our hope in anyhting other that Jesus Christ is sheer foolishness.
trust in Him. all else is a waste of time.
people bless you with their mouths but inwardly they curse you. don't be so surprised when people let you down.
never think of a human being as a refuge and comfort.
don't put your trust and hope in people.
my soul finds rest in God alone. He only, is my salvation, refuge, hope and rock.
though your riches increase, do not set your hearts upon the.
don't trust in money. don't trust in treasure on earth because your treasure is where your heart is.
my soul waits for silence in God alone.
there is only one authority in the universw to which all others will bow: Jesus Christ.
He is the only sure thing and what He says is the only sure thing.
the richest people in the universe are those that know Jesus Christ. they hold the key to life and happiness.
God is our stronghold. our rock. our fortress. our power that cannot be shaken.
there is nothing that can topple the power of God.
build your life on the rock, not on sand, and it will stand the test of time. put everything on a solid foundation.
SELAH - listen; reflect; breathe; take time; pause, and think about it.
be careful, you may be building a wall that is just going to fall down tomorrow and isn't going to do anything for you today.
psalm 62
if Jesus isn't first on your list, then you are missing out on the best relationship of time and you are wasting time.
You are the One that is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
My soul rests in God alone. My soul rests in God alone. My sould rests in God alone.
He is the faithful One.
God waits for us in the silence.
Psalm 62
Song of Trust in God Alone
A Psalm of David.
1 For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall never be shaken.
3 How long will you assail a person,
will you batter your victim, all of you,
as you would a leaning wall, a tottering fence?
4 Their only plan is to bring down a person of prominence.
They take pleasure in falsehood;
they bless with their mouths,
but inwardly they curse. Selah
5 For God alone my soul waits in silence,
for my hope is from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
7 On God rests my deliverance and my honor;
my mighty rock, my refuge is in God.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us. Selah
9 Those of low estate are but a breath,
those of high estate are a delusion;
in the balances they go up;
they are together lighter than a breath.
10 Put no confidence in extortion,
and set no vain hopes on robbery;
if riches increase, do not set your heart on them.
11 Once God has spoken;
twice have I heard this:
that power belongs to God,
12 and steadfast love belongs to you, O Lord.
For you repay to all
according to their work.
trust in Him. all else is a waste of time.
people bless you with their mouths but inwardly they curse you. don't be so surprised when people let you down.
never think of a human being as a refuge and comfort.
don't put your trust and hope in people.
my soul finds rest in God alone. He only, is my salvation, refuge, hope and rock.
though your riches increase, do not set your hearts upon the.
don't trust in money. don't trust in treasure on earth because your treasure is where your heart is.
my soul waits for silence in God alone.
there is only one authority in the universw to which all others will bow: Jesus Christ.
He is the only sure thing and what He says is the only sure thing.
the richest people in the universe are those that know Jesus Christ. they hold the key to life and happiness.
God is our stronghold. our rock. our fortress. our power that cannot be shaken.
there is nothing that can topple the power of God.
build your life on the rock, not on sand, and it will stand the test of time. put everything on a solid foundation.
SELAH - listen; reflect; breathe; take time; pause, and think about it.
be careful, you may be building a wall that is just going to fall down tomorrow and isn't going to do anything for you today.
psalm 62
if Jesus isn't first on your list, then you are missing out on the best relationship of time and you are wasting time.
You are the One that is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
My soul rests in God alone. My soul rests in God alone. My sould rests in God alone.
He is the faithful One.
God waits for us in the silence.
Psalm 62
Song of Trust in God Alone
A Psalm of David.
1 For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall never be shaken.
3 How long will you assail a person,
will you batter your victim, all of you,
as you would a leaning wall, a tottering fence?
4 Their only plan is to bring down a person of prominence.
They take pleasure in falsehood;
they bless with their mouths,
but inwardly they curse. Selah
5 For God alone my soul waits in silence,
for my hope is from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
7 On God rests my deliverance and my honor;
my mighty rock, my refuge is in God.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us. Selah
9 Those of low estate are but a breath,
those of high estate are a delusion;
in the balances they go up;
they are together lighter than a breath.
10 Put no confidence in extortion,
and set no vain hopes on robbery;
if riches increase, do not set your heart on them.
11 Once God has spoken;
twice have I heard this:
that power belongs to God,
12 and steadfast love belongs to you, O Lord.
For you repay to all
according to their work.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Friday, April 07, 2006
why are you wearing that stupid man suit?
"despite the glaring, absolutely indisputable, alsmot hope-extinguishing evidence demonstrating how the entire living biosystem is being traded away in green-frenzied speculative markets by soulless haords of sociopathically arrogant hyper-capitalists - i seem, nevertheless, to be filled with a profound and enduring sense of optimism which i attribute to the fast that this earthly dimension is still home to courageous, persevering, virtuous, compassionate, ever-so-lovely, visionary, conscious and dissident spirits such as you!"
i believe that the boy that sent this to me will always hold a special place in my heart, no matter what has happened.
i believe that the boy that sent this to me will always hold a special place in my heart, no matter what has happened.
romans 12:2
do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.
today in class we discussed these 'subsitive posts' that's we have been writing all semester. i realized that my rants and ramblings were probably not necessarily what alan's wanted. this one too, perhaps, will fall into that category as well.
i admitted that i don't read the newspaper, or watch news on tv. i don't look up things out of random on the internet, and tend not to follow most political ongoings of the world. and i really don't know why either.
i try not to conform to the everyday ideals that society has set up. i think lots of people say that. but as a christian i believe that it's even more important that i don't follow all the stupid trends and everything out there. they're not right ( well, they're not wrong either too i guess), and they're not going to help me in any way.
but i also think that by not looking into the happenings of everything around me, i'm not learning anything. sure i'm going to class, and learning stuff that way. but it's history, and geography, and less about analyzing and thinking. it's 'know your facts' not 'what do you think?'. i'm not renewing my mind at all. i'm not learning anything that's going to help me in the future, unless i want to become a teacher. now i'm not saying that being a teacher is a bad thing, i just don't want to be one. i want to be important, and make an impact somewhere, but i feel like i'm not going to be able to reach anyone. not going to be able to relate.
i used to art for my teachers. now i'm learning that i need to do it for me. i'm learning that it doesn't matter what they think. i've learned this semester that some of them are crazy, and i'm not going to improve at all if i listen to what they have to say. if anything, they've made me want to quit. but i'm not going to do that. i'm just not going to take any more classes where there are so many restrictions, and every student comes out with the same painting.
that's not going to get me anywhere.
maybe just talking with my friends who are 'expanding their minds' to worldly things will give me my fill of socieities politics.
university. oh geez. what have you done to me.
i've never been so bored in my life. the readings have not been stimulating, so i usually don't do them. i'm not motivated, especially this week, because we're at the end.
what have i gotten from this besides an empty bank account.
this summer, i want to renew my mind. in every way possible.
think and talk and do.
and create. but just for me. and if it all sucks, i'm going to keep it and change it and make it something beautiful.
ugh. i need out of this cement prison and into a field to dance in my barefeet. just some time with me and the earth and the sky. and nothing else.
no world.
no books.
no computer.
no conflicts.
help me Father.
i want to be renewed in You.
i'm afraid that being here has made me start to conform where i don't want to. i want to start afresh. and come back in the fall the person that i want to be.
i think that you're supposed to 'find yourself at university'. i think that i've found what i don't want.
but i'm going to try again.
today in class we discussed these 'subsitive posts' that's we have been writing all semester. i realized that my rants and ramblings were probably not necessarily what alan's wanted. this one too, perhaps, will fall into that category as well.
i admitted that i don't read the newspaper, or watch news on tv. i don't look up things out of random on the internet, and tend not to follow most political ongoings of the world. and i really don't know why either.
i try not to conform to the everyday ideals that society has set up. i think lots of people say that. but as a christian i believe that it's even more important that i don't follow all the stupid trends and everything out there. they're not right ( well, they're not wrong either too i guess), and they're not going to help me in any way.
but i also think that by not looking into the happenings of everything around me, i'm not learning anything. sure i'm going to class, and learning stuff that way. but it's history, and geography, and less about analyzing and thinking. it's 'know your facts' not 'what do you think?'. i'm not renewing my mind at all. i'm not learning anything that's going to help me in the future, unless i want to become a teacher. now i'm not saying that being a teacher is a bad thing, i just don't want to be one. i want to be important, and make an impact somewhere, but i feel like i'm not going to be able to reach anyone. not going to be able to relate.
i used to art for my teachers. now i'm learning that i need to do it for me. i'm learning that it doesn't matter what they think. i've learned this semester that some of them are crazy, and i'm not going to improve at all if i listen to what they have to say. if anything, they've made me want to quit. but i'm not going to do that. i'm just not going to take any more classes where there are so many restrictions, and every student comes out with the same painting.
that's not going to get me anywhere.
maybe just talking with my friends who are 'expanding their minds' to worldly things will give me my fill of socieities politics.
university. oh geez. what have you done to me.
i've never been so bored in my life. the readings have not been stimulating, so i usually don't do them. i'm not motivated, especially this week, because we're at the end.
what have i gotten from this besides an empty bank account.
this summer, i want to renew my mind. in every way possible.
think and talk and do.
and create. but just for me. and if it all sucks, i'm going to keep it and change it and make it something beautiful.
ugh. i need out of this cement prison and into a field to dance in my barefeet. just some time with me and the earth and the sky. and nothing else.
no world.
no books.
no computer.
no conflicts.
help me Father.
i want to be renewed in You.
i'm afraid that being here has made me start to conform where i don't want to. i want to start afresh. and come back in the fall the person that i want to be.
i think that you're supposed to 'find yourself at university'. i think that i've found what i don't want.
but i'm going to try again.
je m'excuse
"don't say you're sorry because sorry means something is wrong." (.moneen.)
poeple say sorry all the time. i wonder if that means that there is always something wrong. and where is that wrong? between the person who is saying sorry and whoever they are saying sorry to? or is it just anywhere in the world? and could there be something wrong between two people, and no 'sorry' has been said by either? and how can we fix these wrongs? especially when you want them fixed fast. i wish that everything could be so much more simple that it all is.
and i'm sorry, if i ever hurt you. honest.
poeple say sorry all the time. i wonder if that means that there is always something wrong. and where is that wrong? between the person who is saying sorry and whoever they are saying sorry to? or is it just anywhere in the world? and could there be something wrong between two people, and no 'sorry' has been said by either? and how can we fix these wrongs? especially when you want them fixed fast. i wish that everything could be so much more simple that it all is.
and i'm sorry, if i ever hurt you. honest.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
lost and found
Emma’s post about being able to break up with a friend really got me thinking. She makes complete sense. It is completely natural to break up with a boyfriend or girlfriend, but when it comes to a friend, why does it have to be awkward or difficult?
A friend of mine recently approached me with a problem she was having with one of her friends. My friend, we’ll call her Casta, said that she had received a letter from her best friend, we’ll call her Best (cheesy I know). I guess the two of them had been having problems in their relationship that Casta wasn’t aware of. The letter from Best was pretty much a break up letter. Casta was shocked, both because it was unexpected and break up letters from friends just aren’t very common. Casta became quite flustered, and wanted to know, from me, if the things that Best had accused her of were true. Now this is where things became difficult.
I want to first say that I love my friend Casta. She is an amazing person, and an excellent friend. However, over the last year or so, we have drifted apart. We are still friends, although probably not as close are we were last year. School, work and distance have joined forces to weaken our friendship, but it is still there. We’ve had our ups and downs, fun times and disappointments along the way. But through all of the bad times, I never actually thought of dumping her. I guess I just don’t work that way. I want the best of things, and I didn’t want it to end. I tried to talk things out with her, and it has worked.
(Now I know that this now sounds contradictory to the above statement when I said that friend break ups should be natural. I still agree with that, but I guess that I would rather try to work stuff out first.)
I’ve never really been part of a friend break up. I’ve lost friends, but it’s usually through distance and just drifting apart. But I also believe that maybe that is what is supposed to happen. Maybe those friends that have drifted away from me aren’t supposed to be in my life right now. Maybe they were one of those moment or season friends that people talk about, not the lifetime ones. I think most people who lose friends without a big dramatic break up don’t even get bothered by the fact that they’ve lost friends. I could just be that natural.
I feel bad for my friend Casta. She shouldn’t have had to have that break up come so unexpectedly. But who knows, maybe it was for the best. Maybe she has something better coming along.
A friend of mine recently approached me with a problem she was having with one of her friends. My friend, we’ll call her Casta, said that she had received a letter from her best friend, we’ll call her Best (cheesy I know). I guess the two of them had been having problems in their relationship that Casta wasn’t aware of. The letter from Best was pretty much a break up letter. Casta was shocked, both because it was unexpected and break up letters from friends just aren’t very common. Casta became quite flustered, and wanted to know, from me, if the things that Best had accused her of were true. Now this is where things became difficult.
I want to first say that I love my friend Casta. She is an amazing person, and an excellent friend. However, over the last year or so, we have drifted apart. We are still friends, although probably not as close are we were last year. School, work and distance have joined forces to weaken our friendship, but it is still there. We’ve had our ups and downs, fun times and disappointments along the way. But through all of the bad times, I never actually thought of dumping her. I guess I just don’t work that way. I want the best of things, and I didn’t want it to end. I tried to talk things out with her, and it has worked.
(Now I know that this now sounds contradictory to the above statement when I said that friend break ups should be natural. I still agree with that, but I guess that I would rather try to work stuff out first.)
I’ve never really been part of a friend break up. I’ve lost friends, but it’s usually through distance and just drifting apart. But I also believe that maybe that is what is supposed to happen. Maybe those friends that have drifted away from me aren’t supposed to be in my life right now. Maybe they were one of those moment or season friends that people talk about, not the lifetime ones. I think most people who lose friends without a big dramatic break up don’t even get bothered by the fact that they’ve lost friends. I could just be that natural.
I feel bad for my friend Casta. She shouldn’t have had to have that break up come so unexpectedly. But who knows, maybe it was for the best. Maybe she has something better coming along.
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